True is fake...

Fake or true? U cant tell anymore as long as there someone that expert in pretending..
Lately I’m dealing a lot with these facts.. Actually I deal with it a lot.. I’m tired of finding out the truth.. cz the truth is always fake and cruel.. It’s now an auto set to my mind that all is just a fake.. lately I got family crisis to handle.. My sister is planning to divorce and going to sue her husband for abusing her.. she thought she found her everything when she met that guy.. According to my sister, the man treat her nice before marry.. but the truth reveal after a year after their marriage.. he humiliates, beat, scold my sister and yet treat her like an animal.. she was married for three years but she never get a penny from that guy.. Even when they have 2 kids.. For me, my sister is an almost prefect woman.. she has everything the so called whole package.. she got the nice sweet face and body, she is a caring woman that’s make her a very good nurse.. Everybody in the hospital like her as her personalities feel comfortable to be with. She is a good cooker too. Besides that .. she is a very good daughter. Well compare to me.. .. Sigh. Thus these make me felt no confidence to get a true love.. I met one guy that very in love with her dream girl, although rejected but he still very in love with her.. although he deny that but I know deep inside his heart this is not true.. but I felt weird that we are really close as the times goes by.. Everybody thought we are the couple.. The most weird things is i think I have a bit feelings for this guy and I know he has the same feeling for me as well.. but I’m not really sure that this is the true feeling or just an illusion.. May be he is lonely and I was there every time when he need someone.. But I know I just want to be good friends with him.. Because the truth will destroy all the wonderful things.. I don’t want any of us heart broken in the end.. He is nice and good but I know that I not worth it, he should get a better girl instead of an idiot.. I was very naïve to think that I’m finally met the right one.. As the truth is I was just the replacement of the girl of his heart.. I’m negative thinking? Well this is the truth..